Guys do you remember the lyrics I had to find for class? Well I found them and I had to sing them and it was the most exhausting class ever because I have never cried that much before because of that event with that guy. But I’m glad that I finally got the apology that I always wanted and I can say I feel so much better and I can stop looking back on that day now :) like my teacher said “take this as the apology you always wanted from him, take it as an apology from ALL men” I did and I feel better. Now I can stop looking back and stop beginning afraid! I can move on. :)
All RIGHT TO DISNEY CHANNEL Austin & Ally:Turn It Up Deluxe Editon 01 - Upside Down: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B2B8qR-UJ4A 02 - Me & You: http://www.you…
this song is catchy lol
I realized something while driving to class today. I get sad when my dad can’t come with me everywhere. Even though I’m 21 years old now I still feel lonely and I still want my daddy. I guess always having him around I feel comfortable but when it comes down to me going to places that are far I feel so terrified and I don’t want to leave. When I asked my dad if he was going with me today he told me that he isn’t going to come with me because I need to go by myself and be independent. I need to learn to go to places by myself just in case he can’t go. That’s what my dad told me lol I know I’m independent but I guess deep down I’m still daddy’s girl and I want to know that know matter what happens he will still be there for me. I need him here for reassurance but my dad believes me in me that’s why he is letting me go by myself lol :) I gotta be strong!
Last Sunday I was talking to my friend from class and he was telling me some new things that happened to him including talking to a girl that he likes, so I also asked him a few questions and it came down to me telling him about if I was crazy to think that there isn’t anyone out there for me and how it is to be in a relationship and what it means by working hard in it and a bunch of stuff. Bottom line he told me "Don’t worry about finding someone that likes you, when you find the person that you like you would just no. Trust me, its hard to explain when the time comes you would just know its like this feeling that you can’t explain. Take this time to figure out who you are, figure out what you want, who are you as a person because if you don’t know who you are how can someone else." There is more to that conversation, but honestly a lot of people gave me advice and I have asked for advice from people, but for some reason the way he gave it to me stuck. Like everyone always start out different and they always go awwwor they are stupid and more, but I don’t remember anyone ever telling me what he told me without having that sad look in their eyes for me. He gave it to me straight and he told me that what I am doing right now is okay and that its good that I’m being careful and because I’m figuring out who I am. After that talk it made me feel A LOT better like for real this time, no hiding it. Maybe it made me feel a lot better because he told me exactly what I was feeling the whole time, he said the thing I have been waiting to hear for so long. He is right, I don’t know what I want or who I am. All my life I have been doing things for the sake of others and I have never really done anything for myself, always going through the motion, but never feeling like it was good enough. I realize that I should take the time to continue the road I’m taking right now because I’m figuring out who I am and just having fun with myself. lol I should enjoy it and just be me :]